this carrot juice is supposed to make me feel big and strong. i payed three dollars for it, and it is not working. my tummy feels like its crying so hard that it can't make noises anymore and only does that little sniffly-sucky thing that people do when they're crying to hard to make noises anymore. also, i do not like crying on the train. i think i'm going to stop doing that from this day forth.

yesterday i remembered that fucking smelly asshole from prague who rubbed his dick on me on the green line. what the hell is wrong with people? did i look like a cock-scratching post? did i have "fuckable" scrawled on my forehead in bright, sexy lettering?

and him leaving, then remembering that, then still being cold and wet... i couldn't help it, i just pooped out. but no more. i'm sick of being sick. no more.