my brain is telling me right now that it feels like that crazy fucking hamster on the wheel that keeps going and going and going because it doesn't know how not to keep on going and it's not that it doesn't know how to stop because of course it does but it's the going that is confusing because if it wasn't just going and going and going then there would be nothing for it to see nothing for it to do nothing for it to love because it only wants to keep going and going and going